I close my eyes

I close my eyes,

And even when I'm sleeping I'm alright,

Cause you are in my life.

Once upon a time, I only imagined this and now you're mine.

Oh, I tried so hard...Prayed that you'd find me;

Maybe you're here to remind me,

If you believe that dreams come true, there's one that's waiting there for you.

Cause I believed when I saw You

That when you want something enough,

it can't escape your love.

There is nothing in the world that cannot be...If you believe...

Everybody said,

That I was a fool to think that we could bear, and they just didn't see;

feelings that you care,

the places that you can...

if you believe that dreams come true,

there's one that's waiting there for you.

Cause I believed when I saw you that when you want something enough,

it can't escape your love.

There is nothing in the world that cannot be...If you believe.

Never wished for material things;

Never needed wind for my wings.

I never wished for anything but you...

If you believe that dreams come true, there's one that's waiting there for you.

Cause I believed when I saw you that when you want someone enough,

Then they can't escape your love.

There is nothing in the world that cannot be, if you believe.

Believe, believe, believe :)

I wish to see the world through the eyes of a child...

Last night while I was tossing and turning trying to fall back asleep, I thought how badly I wish I could somehow regress, just enough to a time where I could see the world as a child does, through their eyes, with the innocence, excitement and the anticipation of trying something new, meeting someone for the first time and not judging them by the color of their skin, caste or religion and just enjoy their company for who they are without any outside influence. It is a shame that as we mature, we loose that ability to do things for just the shear pleasure of trying something new without hesitation or fear or worry about what others might think of that decision to do it in the first place.

When we are born we are like clean slates. We have no fear of the unknown, don't have the capacity to hate, and we trust those around us to care and nurture us. For the first few weeks of life, we are dependent on others for all our needs and each week, as we develop, we look around us in pure delight as to what we can start to do ourselves. We begin to focus and smile and as the weeks go by, we discover ourselves and what our hands and feet look like and eventually how they work. We eventually begin to move from simply rolling from our backs to our stomachs to actually crawling and then comes the time we take our first step. We are blessed doing all these things with the help of those who love us and share in our excitement to learn all these new things.

I ones felt pure delight to watch a small girl being approached by another kid almost her age. This kid was a stranger to her but she did not think about the color of that child's skin or what language that child speaks, its religion or caste or even if the that child was a boy or a girl. She looks at that child as a potential playmate, someone to have fun with on the jungle gym. I think about how innocent her gesture is and that she will evenually at no fault of her own, learn about prejudice, and fear of the unknown. Then I was in pain thinking that one day through the media and other outside influences, she will learn about the cruelty of ethnic jokes, how sometimes religion can even in an innocent way, make others less tolerant of your beliefs and how people have a way of judging you by a name or the way you may look. I hope and pray that even though she will be subjected to that, she will never loose her ability to think as an individual and to stand up for what she knows is the right thing to do.

Life as an Entropy....

I shared some time long ago reading this book "Self Matters". Well the truth is I haven't touched the book in months. I got stuck at the part where I had to go back in time and remember insignificant moments. We as human cherish or regret our relationships the way they occur to us. Our relationships tell us what we are good at and what aspects of our nature we need to work upon more. They teach us how to love, trust and give. Relationships come in different sizes and shapes. Some are just a two day interaction we share on a train journey while there are others who would be stuck on for life. These are all opportunities God gives us to learn about ourselves, about people and about life. We have all had that moment in our life that make us cringe and those that we would rather wish to forget altogether but in essence we would be ignoring our entire self. I think its essential to look into these experiences. There is no looking back, everything accumulates inside us. We are our past, we are everything that has happened to us. We are every moment of joy and every wound.Sometimes when I think of the past I realise I am stuck though I know there is nothing to be afraid of now. So I decide that it could be the 23 years of memories to shift through. Looking at that task was exhausting so I dropped it. Thankfully God didn't drop me. Through a series of unrelated events that had depressed me, God was able to peel back the layers of denial and self preservation to expose the inner truth. Well to say so, there might be instances in every ones life that we do not want to look at or something we don't want to talk about. For me I feel I am encircling around such things,examining it and rationalizing it but never feeling it. Parts of my dilemma were questions I didn't know how to answer and how to hold someone responsible for hurting you. I have been emotionally detached for a long time not wanting to blame anybody for anything. There are things that we all go through and there are things that we might be in the middle of dealing with right now. I believe God has great things in store for us. But what we need to do is to go back to the source of our pain and be honest with ourselves and allow ourselves to feel the pain and learn what we all call... LIFE.. :)